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it’s december 19 today and i can’t believe it will soon be christmas time. i just can’t feel it right now, it feels like it’s still so far away. though we already have spiced up our own house with festive christmas decors, have all gifts ready, had bought baby john his santa costume but still, my heart feels so empty….i feel like crying. i miss my family so much , if only fairy godmothers are true then i would have wished to be sent back to the phils. in one big pooof…. i miss my pamangkins, my sisters, brods, (sighs) … and most especially my mama. funny how being far from her would change everything to me. i feel like a little child wanting to be with my mama. i feel like i just want to cry a river and hug her and not let go. how i miss you ma. though we are always arguing, those are just spices of our lives, to keep some bad memories along with the good. i miss going out with you, miss just talking about everything. i wish i have obeyed everything you told me , really, mother knows best. but then whatever God has planned for me, i shall try to accomplish it here. and then someday , i know i will see you all again…. until then…